My Life

a coming out post, to thank diverse books

I have always questioned my own sexuality and yeah I know, I’m not special because everybody does that. But hey I thought I was straight for like all of high school until now. I figured I’d graduate without anything really changing all that much. That seems to be a trend though, thinking that I have it all figured out and then whoopdeedoo I learn and change again.

In retrospect, it’s probably more accurate to say that I had been questioning, even if I didn’t realize it. I’ve had crushes on both guys and girls, although I always excused the latter as being a “girl crush” or that I “really, really wanted to be her friend.” I admired girls in a totally “platonic” way.

Cue the eyeroll, please.

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senioritis feels like wandering through a blank world

i don’t know if you guys will know what i’m talking about but in a lot of fantasy novels and tv shows, there have been scenes where a character will just be in a world that is devoid of any buildings, people, or anything. just like a big, blank, endless world where they will be surrounded by vast nothingness.

that’s what my senioritis feels like right now. there’s a feeling of laziness but it doesn’t feel like the traditional lack of desire to do anything. because i do want to do something, anything, everything. i want to go to college, explore philosophy, read more, dance more, meet people, and all of that. but for some reason, i feel as if i’m standing at a crossroad that resembles that blank white world where i could go anywhere and do anything, if i had any idea what it is i want to do. things that previously mattered before matter less than before and the only thing i can see is the endless possibility that extends in front of me.

this is probably the product of my accepting uncertainty almost too much, to the point where i no longer can see any of the potential paths of life i may take.

this is all word vomit, haha. this is what i get for taking a break from drafting scholarship essays.

til next time?
Kelly ❤

New Year, New Blog?

Hello all and Happy New Year!

In the past, my family has never really celebrated New Year’s with a lot of glory. Actually, we don’t tend to celebrate the majority of holidays. But this year, I went to a friend’s house to ring in the new year. And more than that, it felt different from the celebrations I’ve had in the past. When the clock struck twelve, I felt like I wasn’t just putting 2017 behind me, but every single regret and reservation I’ve had. It felt like a fresh start (cheesy, I know). But what does that have to do with this blog?

It’s been a while (like over a year) but I have emerged, victorious from the challenge that is high school. I haven’t graduated yet (please come soon, graduation), but I’ve finished applying to colleges, standardized testing, my first semester finals and all of that stuff.

In the last few months, I have come back my blog numerous times, sometimes to consider writing a book review, other times to write a discussion post, but every time, I hesitated to break the hiatus, knowing that if I tried to start blogging again, I’d have to go back on hiatus for another month.

When 2018 hit, it felt like a fresh start. And I thought about Dancing Through the Pages again. I’m back, hopefully to be a bit more active than I have been in the past and exercise my book reviewer mind again. But instead of only talking about books, like I have in the past, I want to embrace the metaphorical reason I named my blog Dancing Through the Pages, which is how it describes my approach to life. Aka I dance through every part of it. *Cues cringing from the readers* Yeah I know it’s cheesy.

I want to make this more of a life-style/personal blog smushed together with a book blog, allowing me to write about whatever I want. I’m thinking some college admissions tips because that was my entire life for the past few months (and still not done), more breadth in my book reviews, more discussion posts… stuff like that.

So! What’s changed since my last post? Well, I’m technically an adult now, which seems unreal because I feel the same as I did before. Age is such a social construct. I still don’t know what I’m doing 99% of the time, I still live with my parents, and I’m clueless when it comes to cooking.

I have applied to college! I don’t know where I’ll go yet, but I can kiss the Common Application good bye because I am DONE! For now at least.

I started ballet again. I missed having a dance class to go to every week; ballet quickly became one of the highlights of my week. Funnily enough, I wasn’t nearly as rusty as I expected to be, but I have definitely lost a good portion of my flexibility and strength. But I’m working to get it all back!

And because I can’t let go of my roots as a book blogger, this is what I’m currently juggling in my to-be-read.

  • A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara – This one is so long (but so good right now) and I have already renewed the E-book for this twice. I might just have to get my own copy because this is gonna take me a while
  • Daring to Drive by Manal Al-Sharif – Relevant, interesting read. Also I’m mad at their government now.
  • The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman – MAGICAL REALISM YES

But ’til next time!

Kelly

I MET V.E. SCHWAB AND IT WAS FANTASTIC

A Gathering of Shadows (Shades of Magic, #2)

HAHAHA I MEANT TO PUT THIS UP LIKE FOREVER AGO AND IT OBVIOUSLY NEVER GOT FINISHED.

Yes, I’m alive! I found some time to finish up this post. Okay it was practically finished, but heyyy it’s something during my immense periods of inactivity.

I have, however, found a great way to make this post relevant again, even if this happened like three to four months ago. 😀

I’ll most likely get to meet V.E. Schwab, again on her book tour! Also A Gathering of Shadows is dropping in a little over a week from now, so even more reason to put this up!

Please note that all of this happened in late October, 2015. I also wrote most of this back then so it’s written as if it’s just happened. And. It clearly did not just happen because it’s February of 2016. Oops. (more…)

It’s About Time I Do This….

I feel like I owe it to everybody to put this out there. This is, firstly, to prevent a lack of communication (because I hate that) and secondly, for my own mental health.

I have not posted in close to three weeks (this Saturday marks the third week).

With all the things coming up this semester, blogging has been put on the back burner. I spend a ton of time on the computer for school and I just can’t bring myself to continue and blog without feeling as if I’m killing my vision (and sleep time).

So, unfortunately, I’ll have to be on a half-hiatus for the time being. I’ll definitely be putting up a few reviews and other posts here and there but I’m not going to be able to post as much or in as much variety as I’d like to.

Needless to say, I’ll most likely not be participating in Top Ten Tuesdays as those happen to be on the weekday and one of my busiest days (speech team practice is a huge time vacuum).

I’ll attempt to post a little instead of being totally inactive but again, no promises.

But don’t worry about me! I’ll be back and somewhat present on here! 🙂

(And hopefully not dead from school)

Page Dancer Weekly | Chapter II: Volunteering + The Start of School

page dancer weekly experiment 2 copy

As always, this covers the past two weeks (8/2-8/15).

THE HIGHLIGHTS OF THIS UPDATE

  • I volunteered for a week at a nearby museum!
  • School started again and it absolutely sucked.
  • I gave up on “No-Poo” and this is why.

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Page Dancer Weekly | Chapter I: Summer Break + My First Book Signing

chap 1 pd weekly

To be honest, I’m not a fabulously huge fan of the graphic I made for this, so I’m still gonna be playing around with it. It’s probably gonna be changing every time I do this feature xD

Anyways, welcome to my first ever Page Dancer Weekly! I introduced it yesterday, with a post cheesily titled “Page Dancer Weekly: Prologue (New Feature!)”. In other words, it’s my own bimonthly wrap-up post that gives me an excuse to babble about everything that’s currently going on in my life. Expect these posts to be monstrously long because I’m pretty much jamming like five different posts into one. (more…)

Page Dancer Weekly: Prologue (New Feature!)

Page Dancer Weekly PrologueI’ve been wanting to do this for a very long time but I never really acted on it until now.

So this is the birth of a new “feature”. To be honest, it’s just going to be a fancy name for a bimonthly update thing I want to start. It’s not weekly but I think “Page Dancer Weekly” sounds way better than “Page Dancer Bimonthly”. It’s partially inspired by Cait’s Weekly Fury (at Paper Fury) because I’ve always enjoyed her updates. I’m not going to be nearly as entertaining and energetic as her but I do think that this will allow me to make my blog more personal to me.

Pretty much how this thing is gonna work is that I’ll post it twice a month (or every two weeks) on a Saturday. Once at the beginning/end of a month and once halfway through. Every post will be titled “[Page Dancer Weekly] Chapter #: (Title Name)”. It’s because I’m 100% a cheese and got this idea from a friend and ended up loving it. Why not make my diary/blog wrap-up thing like a book? So that’s how that idea formed.

In this feature/post thing, I’ll be able to talk more about myself rather than just books. I know that I personally just don’t feel comfortable writing posts where I exclusively talk about my day and how it went mainly because my first reaction isn’t to blog about it. By making this a blog wrap-up as well, I think it’ll make me more comfortable with sharing with my readers. I also think I’m going to try to talk about personal interests and obsessions such as music and random things that I’ve begun to do. Yes, I’ll be talking about K-Pop. And yes, you’ll probably be completely confused by my excessive fangirling.

This will also include things like books I’ve obtained and things that I’ve finished. I’ll also link up posts from the past two weeks and talk about what I might post the next two weeks.

Oh and I’ll also begin to put updates for challenges and such here!

I’d also include a section where I highlight bookish news and posts from around the community but I’m also really bad at saving links and remembering them so for now, I’m not adding that on. As I get more comfortable with writing these updates, I might begin to add on different aspects and sections to it.

Overall, this was just a little post to introduce this new feature of mine and explain what exactly I’d be doing with it. I hope you guys enjoy it! 🙂

So I’ve Disappeared But Now I’m Back?

I’ve been gone. And honestly, that notice up on the sidebar was only supposed to be there until early June.

*Looks at calendar*

Oh sht

Well sh*t it’s almost July.

I do have a reason though. It’s just my sheer idiocy.

You see, the original plan was that once I got out of school, I’d start putting up posts on a regular schedule again. I’d try to build up and write enough posts to cover me during the really busy times of school.

Then my family’s trip to China threw a wrench into my plan.

Don’t get me wrong. It was a lot of fun and I’ll probably write up a recap post! But I really should have considered two things that would’ve prevented me from blogging while in China.

1. The firewall

I knew there was a firewall but I checked that my blog and wordpress would actually be able to load while I was at my grandparent’s house. There are some sites that you can use to test urls and check to see if they will work in China.

It worked! I thought I’d be able to write up and post while visiting because although China is fabulous, I’d still have a lot of free time to blog.

But then there was the other thing….

2. Terrible, terrible wifi

I failed to consider the fact that my grandparents have some of the worst wifi ever. Almost everything takes freaking forever to load. Except for baidu, which is like Chinese Google. Baidu doesn’t help me with anything related to my blog though because it’s not wordpress. The only things that loaded normally were Baidu (as mentioned), Goodreads, and a couple of miscellaneous sites. And those were the only sites I’d actually frequent whilst in China.

WordPress and netgalley were both some of the slowest sites to load. I’d sit there for ten minutes while I pulled up my account and clicking on “Add New” and editing would take forever. And if it crashed, I’d likely lose everything.

So yeah. That idea was a bust.

I just wanted to post this to let you guys know that I’m officially back and will be trying to post more while school is out. Now that I’ve got nothing to do all day, blogging will become one of my biggest priorities.